Interesting

I found inspiration in an amazing way.  I'm glad.

So badly

To get rejection after rejection and to keep going is something.  That's what I'm telling myself.

Real

When the computer was stolen from the car, window smashed,I couldn't breathe and wanted a little to die.  Then I didn't. I just wanted to sleep.
I wanted to know why this happened to me 
At some point, we have to be real. What's lost is lost and nothing changes that.  It applies to many parts of my life.  No more zombies in this life.  From now on, forward progress.  Living the alive part of life.